When I am truly connected with the  flow of Universal Love ....I become more real and feel whole filled with compassion and  nothing can shake my confidence~

I have been inspired by bloggers over the years who make bucket lists, life lists. mondo-beyondoing list....I am a self proclaimed list maker myself and over the last 2years have been working on my life list. I recently hit the 100 mark and thought it might be nice to share.  Some things have diminished in their desire and some burn in me like molten glass longing to be shaped and blown into something real and tangible....they call my soul and always have....they whisper my name while I sleep for they are what my dreams are made of. 

100-live lusciously~always
99-cafe/journal weekly
98-buy tickets to Mexico for Yule holidays
97-attend a fall harvest celebration
96-commission "sew dandy" to alter some clothes for me
95-Zen to Done...nuff said
94-call a friend a day
93-find new chick music
92-do the rice experiment
91-transition this year (2009-2010) to 50%raw/100%vegetarian
90-grow friendships
89-get a brazilian*no longer a desire...I say be a natural womyn*
88-finish shawl
87-make a list of fun free stuff to do
86-practice autonomy*has changed to practice mindfulness*
85-get new glasses*DONE*
84-get my dental crown and stay current with cleanings*DONE*
83-Be a Big Sister to a child in need
82-plan a trip to the mediterranean
81-keep adding to Life List
80-get an i-pod*DONE*
79-trip to Azores
78-attend burning man
77-quit smoking*DONE* 2 years go me!
76-go on a womyn's spiritual retreat
75-go to Hawaii*not so sure anymore*
74-get my passport*DONE*
73-fill a journal with inspiring, quotes, lyrics, images
72-finish my business plan*released*
71-make a list of 100 memories
70-make love outside in the rain
69-get fresh air daily
68-perfect my posture
67-write more thank you cards
66-plan more parties
65-paint some cards to send to friends
64-learn to surf
63-acquire a djembe that fits me
62-get a facial
61-go for a full body massage*DONE*
60-find or create a job that allows me to express my creative self
59-acquire a Cannon Rebel
58-own and live on a houseboat
57-go skinny dipping*DONE*and I will again and again....
56-join Winnipeg's lesbian arts and culture group
55-create new friendships
54-build a bike at the bike dump on chicks night
53-replace cleaning supplies with natural ones as I run out
52-trip to San Fransisco
51-watch zeitgeist as per son's request
50-live in a sky rise with a spectacular city view*DONE*
49-send more snail mail
48-organize closets*DONE*
47-meditate consistently
46-be real and honest in my writing
45-release all thoughts of what others think about me
44-love more
43-consume less
42-blog daily
41-try one new recipe a week
40-learn to eat more raw
39-increase my fitness level
38-fill my home with sunny nature pictures
37-paint, paint, paint.....
36-join drumming circle
35-become completely debt free *3 MORE MONTHS*
34-get some delicious photography equipment
33-learn photo-shop
32-live on the lake again
31-build a womyns retreat in the bush/on the lake
30-find a wise womyn to mentor me
29-go to the Michigan womyn's festival
28-put more positive experiences in my basket daily
27-have a coaching session with Leonie Allen
26-make my own set of oracle cards
25-learn to belly dance
24-meet Jann Arden
23-marry myself
22-make a new dream board
21- beach party under the stars
20-go sailing
19-create a studio full of delicious art supplies *started collection*
18-buy more hemp products
17-tape love notes to trees
16-go on a solo vacation
15-take an aromatherapy course *DONE*
14-get a shoulder tattoo
13-walk barefoot on an ocean beach
12-learn sign language
11-start a loose tea collection
10-train my rats to fetch
9-volunteer a Siloam mission cutting hair
8-lead a womyn's circle
7-get a vertical lip piercing *DONE*
6-get dreads
5-take an art class
4-acquire VW westy again
3-take a trip to Savannah Georgia
2-finish my stylist licence *DONE*
1-dance naked under the moon

swollwn, hard, contracting........I give myself permission to take up as much space as I desire......I feel round and my body wants to open .....I spread wide and relax my pelvis melting into the cramps....there is a certain power  within me I feel at this time each month....the goddess lays claim to my body and I feel her power deep in my tummy....I place my hands there, the warmth comforts me .....a sudden rush of emotions then a grin which gives way to bursts of giggles ....I love being a womyn....I love this reminder every month. This gift ....feeling goddess grow in me spill out of me.....I am magic.

I feel the power of goddess growing in me....she is waking me up....I feel the stirrings....I look into the eyes of the womyn I know....each visit wondering ...do you feel it too sweet sister.?...do you see your beauty, do you feel your power?....Maiden, Mother, Crone,...let's find each other....let's find our way back......story-telling, womyns mysteries, belly, medicine, Yoni power, giggles and dancing, tears, silent support, hugs, lets witness one another standing in our goddess power, let's embrace our feminine stregth......I love you devine womyn standing befor me , beside me ...in you; me reflected back...I see my own strength and beauty and I feel empowered by that love.

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Mother Earth, Universe, Goddess....I surrender this to you ....you know my heart, my longings...my desire to circle with others in your greatness.

namaste      

arghghgh he is huffing and sighing....over and over again
it is taking everthing I have to ignore him......come to his rescue, ask "what's wrong?",drag it out of him.......but I am resisting......he needs to find his own voice......I know he want's to communicate something .........but I refuse to rush in and save him...this bad habit of mine is stopping him from growing..........but freak@@@##**%*&$#@$**$!!!.......just open your mouth and speak.......What you have to say is important my son.